Year of Abandon

by Alexa Dexa

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04:07
The shells scatter like stars at our feet Dancing, dancing along the ocean floor The tide swells like my heart in my chest Spilling, spilling onto the seashore, seashore Delicate as glass We peer through the surface To find what lies beneath Delicate as glass We peer through the surface Let it surface The sky puts in perspective our size Shielding, shielding us from wandering eyes The waves synchronize their breathing, breathing With the heaving of our bodies, bodies Reflections play on the ripples Little secrets, little rhythms Reflections play on the ripples Little secrets, little rhythms Of the sea approaching the sand We dip our hands in
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I can’t take what you say to me Turn it, turn it away Oh you got me feelin, feelin weak Don’t lead my heart astray Cause there’s so much that I’d like to do Maybe, maybe with you So tell me that you’ll be true Whoa Speed it up now, bring it up to tempo Start to dance, let’s start to dance Hearts intermingle waiting for the chance To dance, dance, dance We’re stepping up the pace Don’t be, don’t be afraid There’s no time now for mistakes Don’t let the moment fade I feel it in my lungs You’re taking away my breath My heart is going thump thump In, inside my chest Speed it up now, bring it up to tempo Start to dance, let’s start to dance Hearts intermingle waiting for the chance To dance, dance, dance I feel it in my lungs You’re taking away my breath I feel it in my lungs Oh Oh Oh I feel it, I feel it I feel it, Oh I feel it, I feel it I feel it, Oh I feel it in my lungs You’re taking away my breath My heart is going thump thump In, inside my chest Speed it up now, bring it up to tempo Start to dance, let’s start to dance Hearts intermingle waiting for the chance To dance, dance, dance
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03:57
Baby birds must learn to fly It's not up to us to question why It will swallow you whole and leave you desperate If you can't understand, you can't digest it It's the calling of a bird to learn to fly To take that first stride Nestling into my arms You were far gone, you were far gone Nestling no longer When you leap into my yard, into my yard There are signs that tell of dying Plenty of signs I'll disclose your forewarning If you'll share the dream you dreamt last night It's the calling of a bird to learn to fly To take that first stride Nestling into my arms You were far gone, you were far gone Nestling no longer When you leap into my yard, into my yard I'll place a nest of leaves and twigs To sit upon your curly crown So all the little birds that flit To and fro, to and fro Will know where to find fertile ground But please my dear, if love you do Brush away those chirping flocks And find that there is room for two Within your present weave of locks Nestling into my arms You were far gone, you were far gone Nestling no longer When you leap into my yard, into my yard
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Not too long ago I lost my bearings The swiftest compass couldn’t set me straight All I wanted was to know that darkness could be visible I trained my eyes but still the black remains Oh, oh, oooo When your mind shuts down Then your body shuts down And the only thing left, the only thing left When your mind shuts down Then your body shuts down And the only thing left, the only thing left Is your broken bones and the coldest stone at your head All too often I’ve found love is fleeting I’ve watched it walk away step by step All you have is all you’ve got and what you’ve got I wouldn’t want I’ll take my chances by myself instead Oh, oh, oooo When your mind shuts down Then your body shuts down And the only thing left, the only thing left When your mind shuts down Then your body shuts down And the only thing left, the only thing left Is your broken bones and the coldest stone at your head It is desolate when you wake up imprisoned It is desolate when you can’t wake up It is desolate when you wake up imprisoned It is desolate when you can’t wake up When your mind shuts down Then your body shuts down And the only thing left, the only thing left When your mind shuts down Then your body shuts down And the only thing left, the only thing left Is your broken bones and the coldest stone at your head Oh, oh, oooo
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04:14
Modern marvels build communication But rocket science ain’t for everyone Bending circuits into clever verses Hold onto yourself because we’re lifting off We’ll put on our shoes and we’ll tie them too To go To go We build our homes Then we leave them oh To go To go Modern marvels will be ancient history Read in textbooks, third-hand memories I never was a fan of narratives I didn’t understand, but I still gave it a chance We’ll put on our shoes and we’ll tie them too To go To go We build our homes Then we leave them oh To go To go We are roaming nomads Looking for better, trying the unknown We leave our homelands Til we’re satisfied we can search no more We’ll put on our shoes and we’ll tie them too To go To go To go To go To go To go home
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Hush, hush Baby don’t cry I’d crawl around legless Before leaving you behind Trust, trust The truth you can’t hide Not even my arms can hold The weight of your pride On the soft banks Of your god-given flesh I found something Priceless On the soft banks Of your god-given flesh I found something Priceless, priceless Ain’t no good Trying to make amends With a fistful of needles But not one spool of thread Ain’t no good Trying to make amends, oh Hush, hush Baby don’t try To fool me with attempts At saying goodbye I can’t trust, trust That look in your eyes It’s not nice to play games With somebody’s life On the soft banks Of your god-given flesh I found something Priceless On the soft banks Of your god-given flesh I found something Priceless, priceless Spurts and bits Of panicked fits This distance is liftless And shiftless, shiftless Dissipate the space The hours and shapes That string together towns and states Fold up the middles of every map Rearrange the place Until we measure nearness In feet across a bed sheet
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03:39
The dear sweet lord Can throw what he likes into my pocket I wont chase anyone anymore I done tore out every face I once kept in my golden locket Ain’t nobody knocking on my door Ain’t nobody looking for What I got, and I know I got it I got, yes I know I got it I got, don’t you know I got it I got, best believe I got A roughed up, mussed up Gang, gang Of loose rocks and slingshots That will take you to an early grave Tell me who gives a damn About old war stories So I can enlist them to listen to mine I’ve had my fair share of wounds To haunt me Ain’t no new light to shine Ain’t no way to get back that time All I got, and I know I got it I got, yes I know I got it I got, don’t you know I got it I got, best believe I got A roughed up, mussed up Gang, gang Of loose rocks and slingshots That will take you to an early grave Hope you got swift Reflexes Hope you got swift Reflexes Cuz I got A roughed up, mussed up Gang, gang Of loose rocks and slingshots That will take you to an early grave
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04:05
High above land and sea I will be waiting for ages Underneath woods and fields Remnants of mass appeals forsaken, forsaken Broken down bricks of civilized etiquette Checkpoints will crumble Stumbling iron grids twisting in awkward positions After years, after years Years of abandon, years of abandon Abandon ship Empty and desecrated Vessels for the creative To fill with visions Or watch as cement falls back into ash And earth overtakes it, earth overtakes it Broken down bricks of civilized etiquette Checkpoints will crumble Stumbling iron grids twisting in awkward positions After years, after years Years of abandon, years of abandon Abandon ship Abandon ship Abandon ship
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cosmic related relation of information a psychic's fated equation for dense formation he asked me honey how'd we meet and I said baby real sweet and told him wormholes through star stuff wormholes through star stuff wormholes through star stuff brought me to you floating elated unjaded in anti-gravity bobbing but stable I feel him taking hold of me he said let me see the map so I can trace our history back, it's crazy that wormholes through star stuff (inspiration in an empty domain) wormholes through star stuff (integration of a temporal plane) wormholes through star stuff (congregations of star stuff) brought me to you we are so, we are so indisputably in love baby wormholes through star stuff (indication of a languorous line) wormholes through star stuff (an apparition of the wickedest kind) wormholes through star stuff (assignation with a quark in the mirror) wormholes through star stuff (conversations with a particle too) wormholes through star stuff (invitations with a terminal tear) wormholes through star stuff (culminations of star stuff) brought me to you

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Abandon:
the wild impulsiveness of youth
the renunciation that causes people, places, or things to be left behind

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released May 15, 2015

Composed, Recorded, & Performed by Alexa Dexa at Rawhide Records
Mixed by Melanie Balderas
Mastered by Bo Kondren at Calyx
Album Cover Photographed by Anjipan

This album is made possible with funds from the Decentralization Program, a regrant program of the New York State Council on the Arts with the support of Governor Andrew Cuomo and the New York State Legislature and is administered by The Huntington Arts Council, Inc.

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Alexa Dexa New York, New York

Alexa Dexa is a XxgrandmacoreXx toychestral electroacoustic composer-performer operating in a do-it-yourself/do-it-together capacity to deconstruct the harms of patriarchy using music as a tool of transformative self-care. Her/Their collection of toy instruments
rivals a playpen.
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